I guess today will be the last day i'll pampered myself by resting and waking up late. Hee. Its been 3 weeks im having my school holidays and it feels like 3 months. Gosh. I miss my friends so much. Cant wait for school tomorrow. I'll see my old school (again), school canteen which full with birds and crows (i hate them) but im only go for the "nasi padang" aunty's nuggets cause i've promised myself not to eat at the rest of the foodstall cause something bad has happen before. Yucks! Dont want to talked bout it. And most probably, im looking forward to see my girlfriends!! Miss you girls so much larh. I promised myself to study and study and study and got in to polytechnic. Insyallah. So, here comes 2009 and everything has changed for me. I dont know why i feel like blogging this. Im feeling so suffocated and why everything have to be like this. Everyday i prayed and cried. I feel like im on the other side of the world. Will somebody help me? I dont know. I just hope that everthing's fine and i know he will always be there for me to protect me. Please help me. Lead me to the right way. I dont want to feel like this always. I want to be happy like the old me. Hmm.. I just dont know. Im confused and worried. I had one thing on my mind now is that all i wanted is to pass my exams this year and get in to poly. Hope i really can go for it.

As for you, i dont know why i always think about you. But sometimes i feel confused. I apologise from deep of my heart if i dont always get to spent more time with you and i know you dont like when it comes to that. I always dont hang out with your friends, i always irritates you, i always say out all the words thats on my mind which hurts your feelings and thats the part you'll get angry and most of all, we always fight over the phone and i really really hate that part. Im happy to see you and im sad if i miss you. I know that things dont always turn out to be like what you want it to be but i hope you'll understand my situation right now. I dont know why i feel like this. I just want 4 things from you, can you please take care of me, understands me, loved me and accept me for who i am?

as for my naughty sister..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EERA

LOOOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Study hard and be a GOOD girl.

Kakak will always pray for you ok.

HUG!