Is this what we call "fate"?

When we first met, i feel that we've known each other for so long that i can easily let you came into my life.

As months passes, you left me all alone and that when i felt so lonely and i cant live without you.

I cant sleep. I cant eat. All i do is keep thinking of you and i cant control myself as if im depressed.

Maybe i am depressed. I try to block you from my mind but i just cant.

One day, you called and asked for a patch up. You apologise and make empty promises.

I give you a chance and my heart says accept you back and came back to my life.

As time flies, we're happy together again and there you go again, you left me again..

I was seriously shocked. I was missing you so much that i want to meet you.

I miss your hug, kisses and touch but i have to accept it.

It takes me times trying to forget you but i just cant when one night you text me and saying that you want me back.

And this time round, you make promises again but im not sure to believe you or not.

Im tired of your empty promises and believing you so much is so hard.

But what i can see now is that, time flies and day passes, we're trying to start a new life.

Im happy because my heart really says that take you back and i believe you wont hurt me..

But on the other side, im still confused,

I dont want to hurt the other party. I do like him too but it just that, the feeling of falling in love with him is different than the other one.

I try to fall for him but i just cant..

I appreciate all the stuffs that he do for me and im so touched.

He sacrifices alot for me but i just dont want to hurt him..

Now what my hearts says is that, accept him back if he really loves me but dont hurt the other party because i want him to become my best friend..

Im confused.. :'(